I have always been driven. Always striving to overachieve, to be better than the “others”, and to be better than I was the day before. I find myself asking “Emily, Where do you get that energy and the strength to do this?” That I will never know.
It’s my belief, that when you want something, you should go after it. Never stop until you get it. You have to look deep within and push yourself, drawing energy from deep inside. Since becoming a mother, I am less competitive with others. Okay, that was a lie. Let me try again. Since becoming a mother of a toddler, I am less competitive with others. That’s better, because that is the truth.
When The Boy was born, I wanted to be a super mother. To do everything the way that I thought was perfect. Basically, to do things the exact opposite of how I observed my friends to be parenting. Many of them didn’t make the healthiest or safest choices for their kiddos. Funny the way things turn out when you add an infant to the mix. They always have other plans, don’t they. Watch out new moms, kids are sneaky from day one.
While I do most of the things that I set out to do – like no fast food, no cake for breakfast unless it is your birthday, and always wear a helmet while skateboarding (yes, The Boy skateboards at age 3!) – there are a few things that I haven’t followed through with – such as no bikes in the house, no writing on the windows, and always eating your veggies! I’ve slacked on a few things because I’ve been too tired to pay attention to my own responses. As a mom, you always need to be on your ‘A’ game. You can get energy from things like coffee, power shots, and prescriptions. Or, you can choose to be present with your child. Their joy, excitement, and curiosity will power you through even your most tired, sluggish days.
For 2013, I resolve to be more present in my own life, The Texan’s life, and The Boy’s life. At times, the days fly by and I feel like I’m missing things. Instead of worrying about being a perfect, superstar mother, I am going to be happy knowing that I am the perfect mother for The Boy. And that our family is going to have an amazing year!